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Walking on ice, doodling around, work in progress

Wed, 22 May 2013 21:01:00 +0200

Walking on ice, doodling around, work in progress

It’s like there’s this small part of me that’s nothing but hurt and damages, some...

Wed, 22 May 2013 20:34:00 +0200

It’s like there’s this small part of me that’s nothing but hurt and damages, some kind of ball that is just there inside, while the rest of me tries its hardest, doing sports again, exercising, drawing more than before, occupying my mind as much as possible, and most of all staying kind and good to the people responsible.

I walk around with this thing inside of me, I know it’s there, all the time, but I choose to ignore it for the good of everyone, and maybe at some point it will go away. I chose this because that’s the kind of person I think I am, the kind that forgives, if that’s what it means to forgive, at least not the kind that hates and ignores and never talks again.

Smashed my phone against the wall for the 6151454th time.

Tue, 21 May 2013 21:08:02 +0200

SUMMONING HELP Today I went out to try and put my mind off...

Sun, 19 May 2013 16:54:00 +0200

SUMMONING HELP

Today I went out to try and put my mind off things. I walked along a canal and sat down on a bench, picked up this drawing I started yesterday, and decided I would add a dragon from a graphic book.
At some point, a man, looking over my shoulder, asked me if I was an artist, and I wanted to say:

“Oh no, I’m only doing this to feel better about myself cause things have been pretty fucking rough lately.”

Instead I just said “Oh no, I’m just doing it to pass the time.” To which he replied that it’s amazing and that I should never give up drawing.

So yeah, here’s to drawing outdoors.

Dear 2013,

Sat, 11 May 2013 21:48:44 +0200

Fuck you very much.

I am so fucking sick of eaves-dropping on pairs of girls in the metro or at McDonalds having girl...

Tue, 07 May 2013 14:24:32 +0200

I am so fucking sick of eaves-dropping on pairs of girls in the metro or at McDonalds having girl talk about how all men are insensitive jerks driven by their dicks.

LOST IN THE WOODSThe undergrowth is dense, progression is hard...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 22:24:00 +0200

LOST IN THE WOODS
The undergrowth is dense, progression is hard and the light is changing.

Alone in the Dark Series #2

Sometimes I get stuck in a line of thinking, a bad one, the kind that hurts, and I keep thinking, on...

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 22:25:17 +0200

Sometimes I get stuck in a line of thinking, a bad one, the kind that hurts, and I keep thinking, on and on and on, until I just can’t anymore and at that point I punch the wall as hard as I can, and the pain in my knuckles and sometimes the blood actually takes my mind off of the thinking and I’m not stuck anymore and can go on again.

POINT OF ENTRYWhat’s ahead is scary. Alone in the Dark Series...

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 23:46:00 +0200

POINT OF ENTRY
What’s ahead is scary.

Alone in the Dark Series #1

Currently working on this book of photos from New Zealand. More...

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 01:05:00 +0200

Currently working on this book of photos from New Zealand. More than 50 pages and still counting.

Punching walls.

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 18:47:00 +0100

Punching walls.

Yeah so aside from my psychological despair and depression, I started working on a book with my...

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 22:15:35 +0100

Yeah so aside from my psychological despair and depression, I started working on a book with my shots of New Zealand, which I’ve been thinking I should do for about a year.

It’s going to be like a travelogue, with both text and pictures since I wrote down everything I did there because I was in the midst of my 365.

Probably a final 50+ pages, 21x13 cm book which I hope to sell through HP Magcloud.

To Forgive

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 17:23:25 +0100

nathanielatakora:

The currency of forgiveness will never be words. Words are too easily counterfeited. Pain is the cost of forgiveness. To take harm from someone and withhold retaliation is almost as if you’ve taken harm twice. When remorse is not present it as if you’ve taken it thrice. I cannot begin to imagine what it cost God to forgive me. Because He has forgiven me I will forgive.

PAPERMAN

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 18:57:00 +0100

PAPERMAN

MISSING Self.

Mon, 11 Mar 2013 13:10:00 +0100

MISSING

Self.

PARIS LA DÉFENSE - MAZARS TOWER

Sat, 23 Feb 2013 12:29:00 +0100

PARIS LA DÉFENSE - MAZARS TOWER

PARIS LA DÉFENSE - TOTAL TOWER

Sat, 23 Feb 2013 12:28:00 +0100

PARIS LA DÉFENSE - TOTAL TOWER

I BURIED IT DEEP.Is it alive or is it dead?Do mummies ever come...

Sun, 03 Feb 2013 09:00:00 +0100

I BURIED IT DEEP.
Is it alive or is it dead?
Do mummies ever come back?

Self-portrait therapy.

I THINK I DIED.I’m lying on the slab, cut up in pieces,...

Tue, 29 Jan 2013 09:00:00 +0100

I THINK I DIED.
I’m lying on the slab, cut up in pieces, and it looks kinda bad.

Self-portrait therapy.

SIT AND READ IN THE WILDA library in Amsterdam and trees from...

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 21:40:17 +0100

SIT AND READ IN THE WILD
A library in Amsterdam and trees from Bosnia.

Film swap project with Katrin Batalija: she lives in Swiss but shot the roll over in Bosnia, where she was born and went on a trip last September. I did my side of the shooting in last June when I visited Amsterdam for a couple days.

Canon FTb + Canon AE-1 + Portra 160
SOOC